Bit@hes

If one day I actually post this, know that I felt that if you have found out about this blog so you said you would help me to do before I left California.  And I think this one is gonna be the hardest of all to write let alone make public but here we go... (1/30/24start)

We starred off as friends, we met on line in a chat of common interest on TikTok. You and your family just were starting to heal from a great loss to this world, and me on an emotional roller-coaster because of my feelings that I had to choke down every time I saw him and that killing me nights where we would park under the stars and we got out our "Feelings" and then have a long discussion to finish letting go of stress. Then there was my lapse in "mental judgment " not once but twice 🤦🏼‍♀️dfaq was I thinking.... oh yeah the healer in me found someone to help them see they were worth more than they were being treated, even if it's with out me .... to yet again #2 to go from love and passion to dark and cold in a flash especially when I needed help the most. In that instance I knew that I had failed in a promise to you, and it was because my fucked up head couldn't beg for help in any other way cause every way that I knew that I could to signal to the ones THAT UNDERSTAND ME THE MOST especially knowing the way I talk and think that something was terribly wrong here and sit me down and stop me and ask what's on your mind not just how are you doing/feeling. You know me and semantics and you know thinking with people like us is a whole different thing all together. 

But can't turn back the hands of time to before Nov and actually go to get medical figured out and gotten help before this all got out of hand, you kept telling me we ALL needed mental help and we all knew that I really needed it the most. And you knew that my brain was in over drive and I couldn't stay focused on one thing for to long, and that I needed help getting to thing or help looking things up. Add to it when we made the plans to do things it wound up a day you needed sleep all day and I lost faith in what you were saying to me ... 

I have been cast away by my whole family and just now had to hear my own kid call you mom after all this that fucking stung big time, you can't even bare to be out here near me and have pushed me so far away that I don't even know if I would ever come back to you and that's gonna be because of how I'm treated now while I'm trying to heal myself from everything that I have been through ... today is Feb 1st and the last 2 days I have tried to talk to you but I get my messages left ignored for hours when I have asked to talk to you 

Feb 2nd I asked for my jewelry and you could bring me all of it I kept having to ask for things that I didn't see like my 2 cladah rings so since you and Josh had access to them one of the 2 of you took them. So since you couldn't give them to me and kept telling me you didn't have them I reported them stolen the sentimentality of the one for my son that's the only thing I have from Trevor's dad and yall did something with it cause it wasn't in my jewelry box that you cracked by the way... 

2/5 you cunt you waited till my kids went off to school to call the cops to remove me from the property with what ever lie you told them and oh and then knowing how many issues we've had with the schools transportation office you make sure that my kids were left stranded at the house when they needed things FOR SCHOOL that they know where it was and you left them there alone after you promised them they were always welcome but not me, and you told Trevor that me going to a residential psyc ward I wasn't gonna be around for his birthday, bitch I was cleared to go home, and my after apt if they thought that I needed more they would have sent me back and then you want "temporary custody" of my kids wtf you think I look like boo-boo the fool? Told you Linda tried that shit and yeah that didn't work either. 

I call upon the forces near and far, I call upon the God of the Great Star. Bring punishment to the those who have caused my family pain, May over their head pour a bitter sour burning razor-sharp rain. Let them see and feel what they have done, For them let there be no sun. Their soul will forever be trapped in a life of pain and anguish that you have caused others in this life,

And no more lives will they be able to mar! You've done wrong, you know it well, the secret's out

and so's this spell! Turtured mind, restless spirit, guilt's the cause, you'll strongly feel it! Chest unlocked, will eat you up, when you come clean, this curse will drop!

( by the way, I've seen it starting to take hold before you had me removed... you should have never kept my gifts just for the dark that is within me, you've seen what I'm capable of, and it's gonna suck cause you don't know what's where....and how and with what... 🤷‍♀️ you done fu@ked with the wrong one... now you can reap what you've sown. If you think this was all of it your sady mistaken this is barely the fondant on the cake ....🤔🤭)